Gah! Just as I’m trying to find some distraction in this world, here’s some very good eczema writing by Rebecca Gisler in About Uncle.
My brother and I have the same flaws, and the first of those flaws is that we have eczema, which is to say that, rather than protecting us from external aggressions, our skin itches endlessly, and it goes rough and dry like old crocodile leather, and it cracks and it fissures and it furrows, because over the years raking that defective skin has become as natural and unconscious as breathing, and some people say our skin is too fine for this world, that we’re allergic to it.
and
from the emptiness deep down inside us, from the stirring and throbbing of the emptiness inside us, and that’s what turns us into these louse-infested beasts, these fleabags, these bundles of nerves that no balm can soothe, but enough whining because it’s also true that scratching when you have an itch, even if it’s all the time, where you have an itch, even ifs everywhere, brings an intense pleasure and deep satisfaction, and we could easily devote our days and weeks to it, reducing ourselves to sawdust and shavings with fingernails and rasps and anything else we might find at hand, never thinking of the consequences, not thinking of anything, thinking of nothing, the very nothing than binds my brother and me, the reason we’re never at peace.